How I am like Scomo :-(

Tossing and turning.  Suddenly awake!  And then drifting off again.    I went to sleep feeling bad about the world and anxious about a few things.  I guess it’s unsurprising that I slept like a police-car’s light – a whirling strobe of alertness and quiet.

Tomorrow we go and pick up a puppy.  I am not as at peace with the whole thing as I would have expected.  Finding a puppy in this environment was like competing for toilet paper during the lockdown and, as a result, we ended up buying from a breeder.  She’s only a small-time breeder – one litter at a time and with a funny mixture of dogs capering about her house.  The puppies were brought up in a family environment and I like that.  But I feel we have joined a frenzy of dog-buying that is unhealthy and may result in rescue-shelters being flooded in a few months time.   I feel guilty that we didn’t wait –  that I let our son’s infectious excitement get to me.  Oh, it’s definitely true.  I’m a sucker for almost any kind of animal.  But who can resist a fluffy puppy with round, brown eyes?  And any purchase made with FOMO is a purchase not entirely of your own free will.

And then there’s the whole world-politics thing.  Yesterday it really got to me.  I wrote my blog entry and feared I would cry as I read it aloud to P.   But my grief for the way the world is going was transformed into a poisoned barb by a little voice in my head that says:  You protect what you have too.  You too are guilty of defending borders, of wanting to stay wealthy, of failing to be charitable when you could.  Just because you don’t have the kind of money Scomo has power over, doesn’t make you any less guilty.  You are a hoarder of privileges…

After the May 2019 election,  I lost all faith.  For a long time I have questioned the work of big charities (Do they use the money wisely?  Do they aim for change or only to make the status quo less unbearable?  Do they listen to their recipients or simply impose what they think is right?).  But last year I suffered a huge disappointment.  I committed myself to a political standpoint, a goal, a passion.   We threw money and time and energy into it and we failed spectacularly.   It wasn’t the fault of the organisations we supported.  I guess I see that now.  Our money (big and generous from our little pockets) was like one raindrop in a storm.  We weren’t even heard in the clatter.   So I  felt like we’d thrown away money – watched our little raindrop get washed into the gutter and disappear forever.

Like with the puppy purchase,  it became a case of defending our patch.  A case of FOMO.  Unlike Scomo, I wasn’t interested in International Borders.  I just wanted to seclude myself from our own government, our own system.  They say “Think global, act local”.  But I think I ended up thinking local and acting local.  I focused in on our little plot.  I started this blog.  I figured out ways that we, as a family, could be greener, have a smaller footprint.  And (in terms of giving) I blocked the big world out (to a large degree).  I wanted out of capitalism.  I wanted out of consumerism.  But even with those potentially wholesome goals, you still have to consider your future.  How will we cope when we’re too old to work?  What will we pass onto our children?  And so even while stepping slightly outside normal society,  I am still a prisoner of the system.  I still am fighting for my own future, my own patch.  I am hunkering jealously over my own little piece of the resource pie.   Isn’t that the very nub of the problem with Australian capitalism – an unwillingness to share our wealth?

Recently I pondered homeschooling our kids and listened to a number of podcasts about the Finnish schooling system.  I realised that, even if I were as capable as a Finnish teachers (all of whom must have a specific post graduate degree), how do you teach a child in one system when the tertiary education in this country is based on another system?

I have the same problem with capitalism.  I defy it in the present but don’t know how to explain my future without it.  I don’t know how to protect our children and be a good world citizen.  I have failed to think outside the system I live in.

8 thoughts on “How I am like Scomo :-(

  1. It’s a lot to ponder on. I’ve said many times that I am glad that I am not a young person raising a family today.It is so much harder I think. I have no children, so no grandchildren but I do have nieces and a nephew and a grand niece if there is such a relationship and I especially wonder what lies in her future.
    Many of us were disappointed by the last election result. I personally could not believe that Australians could not see through Scomo and his nasty cohorts but unfortunately this is what we have to deal with and I don’t believe that even electing a Labor government would change everything.
    I have been concerned about the frenzy of dog buying. On the surface it sounds great but I do feel that after families return to work and school there may be buyers remorse on a huge scale. I hope that a big percentage of those dogs have found their forever homes though. I don’t think your family would be one of those who sees a puppy as a plaything though. You may end up being the primary carer for it but think of it as an opportunity to teach your kids about responsibility. Dogs are always optimists, having the pup around will give you something else to focus on when things are bad.
    I think the changes you have made are good ones and there is nothing wrong with wanting to protect your own patch. The difference between you and Scomo is that he and his kind think that in order for them to stay on top others must be kept down. They thrive on hate and fear. You don’t want to stop others from having what you have.
    There is a meme going around FB about what events happened in the life of someone born in 1900, maybe you’ve seen it. The world seems a scary place right now and honestly I don’t know where we’re going. I’m sort of glad that I’m unlikely to be here in 30 years to find out. I think that all we can do is stick to our principles, make those small changes, support the causes we believe in, vote out the bad guys and most of all make the most of what we have now. If enough of us do that, over time maybe things will change for the better. In the meantime, enjoy your puppy.

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    1. Thank you. It is a rather scary world right now. I”m just hoping that the pendulum will swing back… maybe to the 1970s/1980s. (To my naive brain, anything before 9/11 seems kind of innocent & carefree). Some people have innate faith in the pendulum of democracy. But to have faith in that, you have to believe that democracy is still fully functional. That’s where my faith falls down. I am sure the puppy will be a fabulous distraction for quite a while. 🙂

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  2. PS: I’d love to see us elect a Green government. I feel they are the party with the most compassion and I’d like to see if their policies could be made to work but I fear that will never happen in my lifetime.

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  3. You are not at all like that bunch. Having a roof over one’s head, clean water and food, an ecologically sustainable environment, a future for our children that contains these things and encourages them to have compassion for others, are not privileges.
    Also getting a puppy from a breeder is not a crime, nor is it a sign of over-consumption. This is debate that I’ve had with myself. I’ve got three pure breds. One is a rescue. Even pure breds can be dumped. One can be made to feel like a pariah for choosing a dog from a breeder. There are so many benefits from pet ownership. It will be wonderful for your family. Possibly not for your garden though. And when you wake up in the middle of a freezing cold night, guess what? It will be your job to take puppy outside for a wee. 😊

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    1. Thanks for your kind words. You wouldn’t believe how crazy the dog market is ATM. A young dog at the RSPCA got 100 callers in one morning and was gone by lunchtime. If we wanted a dog now (that wasn’t way too big for our son/home/lifestyle) pet rescue simply wasn’t an option. The option was to wait until the rush was over. And yes, I totally agree about the benefits of having pets. We had all manner of pets (living in Indonesia some interesting options came up) when I was a child and they were a joy. And also yes… I will be the primary carer and the getting-up-in-the-night-to-wee person. Ah well. I’ll probably cope. 🙂 I coped with rearing a baby magpie alongside 2 indoor cats, a toddler and an infant. I coped with having baby chickens living in our bathroom for 5 weeks. LOL. Hopefully I’ll carry off the puppy thing too. Fingers crossed. 🙂

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      1. It will be so much fun.
        Still it would be worth crate training your puppy. We ended up with Fynnie because he kept chomping on a toddlers hands with his sharp little needle puppy teeth. And because he kept eating the walls. That reminds me we still need to fix up the hole in our wall.

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