lazy i call myself lazy she says i get it from her i protest "but you're conscientious!" she says "that's just busyness". busy yes it's easy to be busy cooking, cleaning, blogging, walking puppy busyness falls onto you as readily as procrastination procrastination he says "why don't you stop volunteering at the school? then you could write in that time" i object "I only just started. I would be letting them down." and other significant excuses. excuses they are the bucket-load that i carry around weighty with waiting perhaps the chooks will eat them if i sprinkle them like cracked corn cracked corn that's my self esteem when i see other people doing it just doing what they planned instead of making excuses why they can't.