In the moment

abigfatcanofworms Personal Reflection August 2, 2021 1 Minute

quick silver

life dose of poison
tinkling
in fattened veins
shimmering
at vision’s corner
like dew drops
in morning sun

glaring on branch
dark finger's
quiet quiver

bright the barb

blood sport
this 

chemo

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Published August 2, 2021

16 thoughts on “In the moment”

Ingrid says:

August 2, 2021 at 4:28 pm

This is painful to read but excellently written! I hope you are getting through it ok 🙏

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1. abigfatcanofworms says:
  
  August 2, 2021 at 4:29 pm
  
  Thanks Ingrid. 💕. Weird sensations come from this deliberate poisoning. Figure I should note them where possible. Glad it read ok. It’s hard to tell from the inside.
  
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  1. Ingrid says:
    
    August 2, 2021 at 5:53 pm
    
    It seems medieval to me. I hope in time the treatments will become less toxic.
    
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  2. abigfatcanofworms says:
    
    August 2, 2021 at 5:55 pm
    
    Only 3 cycles to go and of a different toxin. So should be different at least. 😁
    
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Hobbo says:

August 2, 2021 at 5:16 pm

You are not only very brave to write about it, you do it so well. Stay positive my friend.💖

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1. abigfatcanofworms says:
  
  August 2, 2021 at 5:45 pm
  
  Thank you. 💜
  
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  1. Hobbo says:
    
    August 2, 2021 at 7:01 pm
    
    👍
    
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Bob says:

August 2, 2021 at 10:29 pm

Wonderful and difficult. I hope all is well.

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1. abigfatcanofworms says:
  
  August 2, 2021 at 10:37 pm
  
  Thanks, Bob. Much appreciated.
  
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Reflections of an Untidy Mind says:

August 2, 2021 at 10:45 pm

It’s a weird invader but not the worse one. You write so well of these things.

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1. abigfatcanofworms says:
  
  August 2, 2021 at 10:56 pm
  
  True. 🙂. And thank you!
  
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  1. Reflections of an Untidy Mind says:
    
    August 3, 2021 at 8:39 am
    
    Welcome.
    
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anotherkatewilson says:

August 3, 2021 at 7:18 pm

love and hugs ❤

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sarcasticfringehead says:

August 5, 2021 at 3:43 pm

I thought this poem was about a feather 🙈🤦‍♀️ On a second reading of it I am astounded. Your writing is growing increasingly precise and glorious even when the subject matter is almost intolerable. Such is the power of words in the hand of a skilled writer. Brilliant. Just brilliant.

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1. abigfatcanofworms says:
  
  August 5, 2021 at 4:29 pm
  
  Oooh. The feather is so interesting. I don’t think it’s strange. The sensations I was attempting to describe are not painful. Just very weird. The shimmering. The sense of something fast in my veins.so there are a lot of light words in there. I get the feather thing. And I am glad of all feedback. I live it but I am conscious that not everyone does, in fact maybe my response to the chemo is quite personal and therefore I have no idea if what I feel actually gets across in my words.
  
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  1. sarcasticfringehead says:
    
    August 5, 2021 at 8:19 pm
    
    Well even if it’s just your experience you, your poetry is very visceral
    
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